Tonight hubby called and I could hear a screaming child in the background. I panicked. Then I realized that he would have told me if he was on his way to the ER.
Then I was thinking, how going to the ER (for something non life threatening) is a kind of relief. For however long you’re there, nothing else matters. How much sleep we are all getting, how much credit card debt we have, how we’re going to pay all the bills this month, how fat I am, what I ate today, how nice the house looks. None of this matters, for just a little while. I want that. Not the ER visit, but the nothing else matters.
I told my hubby that we have been too involved in the rat race lately. We need to go to church. This is hard for us as he is Catholic and I am Pagan/Jewish/Universalist/Non-Christian.
So I just want to get to that place of such gratitude for my life and the lives of my loved ones that nothing else matters.
Tags: catholic, catholicism, feminism, goddess, motherhood, pagan, parenthood, spirituality, wiccan
rant, share | GoddessC | 
March 23, 2008 12:42 am | 
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Goddesses are multi faceted. We have many aspects. We are not able to be summed up in a 30 second elevator pitch. Who am I?
- Goddessness
- HAP (Healthy Active Person)
- Small Business Owner
- Lover
- Wife
- Poet
- Teacher
- Mommy
- Learner
- Teaching women to be self employed
- Artist/Writer
Who are you? I want to hear. I want to begin to hear. I could listen for a lifetime and not know.
Why do we designate ourselves as goddesses? Because we deserve to worship ourselves. We deserve to give ourselves the same type of love and faith and forgiveness and ATTENTION that we give to God. No warring for ourselves please just courageously fighting for our divinity.
Tags: diva, feminism, goddess, spirit, spirituality, woman, women
being a woman, goddessness, nurturing, share, spirituality | GoddessC | March 20, 2008 8:28 pm | Comments (0)
I sometimes (frequently) feel like I am not a “real” pagan. Not a Wiccan. I don’t celebrate the Sabbats, I haven’t done ritual in forever. I haven’t danced naked in ages. I don’t even hardly look at my altar.
When I am scared, or sad or just want to talk, I always pray to Goddess. She is always there for me and I really believe that. I am not a Christian. I will never be a Christian. Sometimes I want to shout it from the rafters-I AM A GODDESS LOVER-DON’T MISTAKE ME FOR ONE OF YOU!!! But there are so many things wrong with this, like for example, I don’t actually know what rafters are or where to find any.
I am an imperfect, tired, lazy, human being who believes that a woman created us and a man helped. That spirit has no gender but beings with gender must have gender in their relationship with spirit.
I believe that no western religion gives women their proper place. They are always second. Not even equal.
Goddess please help me to be a vessel for you on this earth, for your love and infinite compassion. Please give me faith. Please help me to encourage women to love themselves, both literally and figuratively. For if all the women in the world were happy-the world would be a much better place. Just ask my husband if anyone in the house can be happy when I am not. “When mommy’s happy-everyone is happy.”
Thank you.
Blessed Be.
My struggle with eating health food has always been my appetite, so when my band is adjusted well and I am not overly hungry-I eat very well-low wheat/high protein the whole healthy deleo but when I am hungry all the time I just can’t stick to that. It has been my life long battle/journey.
One of the theories that I’ve read about is that some of us have a genetic pre-disposition to overeat during times of abundance and then we are all set for times of scarcity. During the “old days” this was the cycle of life. Now that we are in a constant state of abundance, our brains and biology just don’t know how to adapt. Add in the constant availability of food that is not nutritionally rich and sound and you get a recipe for the obesity epidemic that we are facing. For people who are obese, which means they have a BMI of 35 or more, there is a 90% failure rate with an weight loss program, even if successful-it will all be gained back because we are constantly fighting our biology and usually biology wins. With the lap band the opposite is the case. There is a 90% (or something like that) success rate-because of the ability to stimulate the full hormones and nerve endings in our stomachs without overeating we actually are successful. There was even a study in Australia on overweight people with diabetes. With lap band surgery their condition was not managed but actually cured whereas with diet and exercise it was just managed.
Everyone is different and needs to find the solution that works for them. Also the solutions that work for people who are overweight versus obese are different (they are actually medical terms). I am at the beginning of my lap band journey but am looking so forward to continuing-I have hope and a real sense that I can be successful without suffering constantly-I am very excited. So yes, I must eat healthy and exercise-the surgery is a tool to help me eat less and that is all-the rest is up to me. But it is such a great tool! I have been walking and doing the elliptical at the gym. I worked out 20 days in Feb. In a few weeks or month I will begin a weight lifting regime as well to assure that I lose fat and not muscle.
I believe that lap band surgery is a great medical solution to living in an unnatural world.
I have hit the 6 week mark with the lap band. I am down 22lbs. I am really looking forward to getting my first adjustment so that I will be eating less and losing more.
Hubby said last week that when I was full faster I did not feel upset at the lack of food but free as if removed from prison.
Thank you lap band for freeing me from the prison of my apetite.
