Update from Goddess-land

How is it that I can feel so empowered one minute and so empty the next? I don’t know how to carry the feeling of divinity into my evenings. I sit at home and feel lonely. I don’t feel like creating art, I don’t feel like working. I don’t feel like reading or watching TV. I have to be careful if I do watch TV because if I watch anything depressing-it haunts me. My life is boring and unsatisfying yet I’m ok. My husband and I are happy – my son is healthy. Hubby’s job is going well as is my business. In this climate-it is wonderful. But… I don’t want to whine. I want to be empowered. I just feel everything but…

I want inspiration, motivation, excitement. I want to feel alive and joyful. I want to feel safe too. Can i have it all?

Can I stop thinking about myself for a moment or two? URGH!

This too is Goddessness-someday I will look back on this time and realize how much I learned-I want to enjoy it now though.

Police In India Trained In Goddesses To Improve Male-Female Relations

This is an interesting response to a horrifying problem…

Chandigarh, July 1: Goddesses, save women from Haryana police.

The force, struggling to wipe rape blots, has turned to goddesses to keep the men in uniform from preying on women.

Crash courses in religious studies, with an emphasis on goddesses, have been lined up to help the personnel “understand” women better. More

If teaching men about Goddess prevents rape-possibly teaching men and women all over the world will help us all to respect ourselves/each other more.

Why are goddesses virgins?

Is there real value in it or just lots of boys writing history who don’t want to think about their mothers doing it?

Sex-Priestess

I just noticed that I am listed under WP search on blogs about sex priestesses. This is so wonderful but reminds me how far away from that I’ve gotten. I’ve possible gone so far underground that I disspeared! I want to say that I believe that being a sex priestess, or a sex goddess is something that ALL women are capable of. It took me a lot of work to get here. Not saying I have no where else to go-but in that area-things are amazing. I’ve just gotten a bit shy about being too explicit online. Even under my pseodonym, “GoddessLady”.

It’s a shame that in this modern world women still have to be ashamed, or hide their sexuality. Or else, if they have issues with it-there is little support for them. As far as I’m concerned every women should be having sacred and amazing and orgasmic sex regularly-with herself and with her partner. This is how we were made!

So many marriages and relationships lose this component and the overall voice that we hear is that, “that’s normal”. But it’s not. Just ask any animal that is overwhelmed with the urge to mate. We are animals. We need to be mating to be fully human. Goddess gave us the sacred ability to enjoy our sexuality even when a partner is not present. This divine gift is one that is part of our animal/human nature and one that we “should” be taking advantage of regularly.

Unless there is a short term medical or emotional issue-every woman should be experiencing orgasms on a regular basis. I’m talking daily or several times a week. MINIMUM! I say should here not to make anyone wrong but to bring home the point that just as if you were limping for years-you would say, huh-I wonder why I limp all the time? If you are not orgasmic alone and/or with partner-you can say, huh, I wonder why?

The cure? Is different for all women but usually involved reawakening their love of themselves, healing their past sexual trauma, claimin their sexuality as their own and some sort of regular rituals that contribute to well being and joy. Some examples are dancing, self pleasure, buying pretty things, therapy, personal growth, spirtual education. It is usually a mix of the intellectual, the physical and the spiritual.

We are blessed animals-let us nurture our areas of sexual shame and disability and heal. How wonderful would the world be if every woman, everywhere in the world was empowered sexually and spiritually? Men would be happier, children would be happier.

So – when you take time  for joy, pleasure and self-you are making the world a better place.

-Goddess blessings.

Goddess And Sprit Bring Blessed Changes

Lately I have been so amazed by the relationship hubby and I had-it’s like a new honeymoon for us. The thing that amazes me the most is that we did not “do” anything to make it happen. It’s really been unfolding ever since that first seance that I went to In November. He has actually used the words to me, “You are my goddess” and “I love worshiping you.” I never thought I would see the day!

A small note about the seances-they tend to be more spirit guidance from ascended masters than catching up with dead relatives and loved ones. That does happen too-it’s just not really the focus. Just an FYI-for more info see Ms. Tulip And Me.

Anyway-I have worked at continuing this connection, at being loving in my requests and less bitchy. Now-I’m still a woman so the bitch is never going away completely but it is growing slowly.

Also-I am feeling very grateful and connected to spirit more and more. Having a direct experience-speaking with angels, goddesses, spirit guides has, for me, made this a reality that is undeniable.

This Goddess journey takes me in so many wonderful directions-I am finding the balance between creating my reality and letting the wonderful reality that Goddess has in store for me unfold to be awesome.

Blessings to all!

Good Self Esteem

“Good self esteem is being at peace with the difference between your real self and your ideal self.”

-My therapist (Anon)

I believe that part of the Goddessness journey is to not just be at peace with your real self but to revel in her. She is the juicy, sensual human who is sacred and precious in every way.

Goddessness Is Not A Size

Recently I was at a ritzy mall in Atlanta with my good friend, and she asked me what would I do if money were no object. I said that I would fix a few small things around my house and travel travel travel. Since we were looking at store after store of fancy clothes I started thinking abouy what I liked. I loved a lot of the clothes in the window of Bebe. They were very tiny.

The thing that I find frustrating isn’t just that I can’t shop there now. Thanx to my hard work combined with my lap band surgery, I will probably be able to shop there in a year or so. The thing that I find so frustrating is that many women can’t shop there. If I woke up tomorrow a size 0, I think that I would feel like I was betraying all my goddesses by shopping there.

Beauty is not a size and so many women of all sizes  deserve to feel beatiful and wear beatiful clothes. Dividing us by size into this store or that store is so demeaning and lowers all of us. Goddesses should be able to buy sexy clothes-even in ritzy malls.

Never Postpone Love…

“Never postpone love till tomorrow, it’s the busiest day of the week”

Angel Love by Bonnie Altenhein

I Feel Like Somebody

Today I helped a friend whose hit rough times (to put it lightly) with her resume. I took several versions of her resume, re-wrote and re-formatted it. At the end she looked at it and said, “Wow-I feel like somebody now.”

I have not been able to stop thinking about that comment. I think that we should all do a resume-maybe with the help of a friend who likes us better than we like ourselves-for the area of our lives that we feel like a nobody. Career, spirituality, love, fitness whatever. And see that we too are all “somebody”.

I am working on this-think maybe it’s part of the Goddessness coaching program.

Where do you think that you are a nobody?

My first seance-it was real, empowering and fun

I had an amazing night last night. I attended a Seance with Rev. Donna and her spirit guide, Ms. Tulip. There were 7 of us plus Donna in the room-it was amazing! I highly recommend it!

I met my spirit joy guide, Darienne-a trickster with brown hair, violet eyes and wearing bloomers! I didn’t actually see her-this was the description that I heard. She encouraged me to wear jewelry with bright colors-especially yellow-I am seeking a yellow stoned necklace now. She likes plaid because she likes bright colors. I also have a little dog with me. I’m looking forward to hearing the recording for more details that have already left me.

My guide is helping me to open the doors to spirit-I am looking forward to seeing what that is all about.There were a lot of male spirits who visited-I was surprised that there were not more Goddesses, but I did hear that Kuan Yin was there-I must learn more about her! I was really surprised at the distinct personality and gender that each spirit showed.

Anyway-it was a wonderful and cool night and I look forward to going back again soon.