I Cried When I Realized-No Post Op Nose Ring

I cried last night when I realized that I would not have a nose piercing anymore. I begged the Goddess forgiveness. I raged that my hubby was right. (I hate that!).

I couldn’t get it back in after surgery. It went almost all the way but the layer on the inside had healed. I didn’t go to Piercing Experience because I just couldn’t handle the pain. Today, it would hurt even more because it has pretty much healed all the way. It really hurt when I got it pierced. It made me cry. Then one night I ripped it out in my sleep and my nose swelled up and Padrick put it back in. That REALLY hurt. He was so great-I felt in love with him after how gentle he was with me. But now, I just can’t. Even though I just bought a new one. I just feel like my nose rejected it.

I like looking different. I also like looking the same. Basically, I like not being in pain. So I want to put a sign on my forehead that says, “I didn’t get rid of the piercing to look like everyone else or because hubby didn’t like it!” But, proving oneself with a piece of jewelry is an impossible task I guess. I don’t know.

Goddess does not want me to suffer. She wants me to be happy and does not need me to suffer for her. I’ve done enough of that. So has Jesus. I am already forgiven. I am already loved. I do not need to prove anything. I am dedicated to the Goddess in every woman and everywhere.

4 Comments

  • By Corey, February 7, 2008 @ 7:51 pm

    That really sucks. I hate to see someone lose a piercing that they would rather keep. I had taken mine out for awhile and had to open a couple back up recently.
    Take care.
    ~Corey

  • By heavenlyceleste, February 7, 2008 @ 11:17 pm

    Thanx Corey-I just don’t have it in me to get it re-pierced now-between surgery and some recent migraines I just can’t bring myself to do anything on purpose that will hurt! Some people don’t find them to be painful-not my case. Ouch!

    When you had your opened up was it as bad as when you had it done originally?
    -Celeste

  • By Corey, February 8, 2008 @ 1:40 pm

    I opened up two conchs. I just pushed a sharp needle back through them and then pushed 14 gauge labret studs in. It was not nearly as bad. I haven’t had my septum done yet but so far my conch was the most painful piercings I have had. Maybe in the future after your other things get sorted out you can get it re-done. I think septum rings are pretty damn cute on chicks :)

  • By Celeste, February 9, 2008 @ 1:43 am

    Thanx Corey! I liked it too. We’ll see.
    -Celeste

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