A Goddess Grapples with God

Today I attended the Atlanta Unity Church. The underlying message of unity is one I agree with but I really struggled hearing the word GOD and Christ. I have really negative associations with these words/concepts and am praying to release them.

I do not now where this comes from exactly-my relationship and opinion of men in general is better than that with women. I have a great relationship with my father, husband, and son but not with my mother. Yet I stubbornly refuse to be at peace with God/Christ but am with Goddess.

So I want to let go of my fear of a divine man, of being part of the “crowd” because it is interfering with my life. I am sure that I do not know all the ways, one is that I want to enjoy the Unity Church and it will be easier if I can make peace with the concept of a Christ consciousness and the word God.