Update from Goddess-land

How is it that I can feel so empowered one minute and so empty the next? I don’t know how to carry the feeling of divinity into my evenings. I sit at home and feel lonely. I don’t feel like creating art, I don’t feel like working. I don’t feel like reading or watching TV. I have to be careful if I do watch TV because if I watch anything depressing-it haunts me. My life is boring and unsatisfying yet I’m ok. My husband and I are happy – my son is healthy. Hubby’s job is going well as is my business. In this climate-it is wonderful. But… I don’t want to whine. I want to be empowered. I just feel everything but…

I want inspiration, motivation, excitement. I want to feel alive and joyful. I want to feel safe too. Can i have it all?

Can I stop thinking about myself for a moment or two? URGH!

This too is Goddessness-someday I will look back on this time and realize how much I learned-I want to enjoy it now though.