Goddess Message For Me-I am responsible for my wrongdoings-not teaching others of theirs.

I had a terrible migraine headache for the last two days. While lying in bed yesterday, I prayed and prayed-”Kuan Yin, Angels, Goddess, please help me – I surrender”.

My in-laws and I had a bad falling out a few years ago. Without going into excessive detail-I wrote some stuff online that was rude to them and some other stuff that was too explicit for them. I never meant for them to read it but they found it. I didn’t do the best job of covering my tracks-I’m much better at that now.

Anyway-I’ve apologized but on the condition that they acknowledge some responsibility in the matter. Things were not exactly peachy keen between us before this all happened. Years of ill will, hurt feeling and un-met expectations went into the “final showdown”. I haven’t spoken with them directly-have left phone messages and written but no direct convos. Let’s just say that everyone in my life (except hubby who has been very torn) has thought of me as right and them as wrong.

In bed-in pain yesterday-I prayed and finally felt clear enough to be willing to apologize in person for all wrongdoing and trust that I will be safe. It is not my job to make them responsible for their wrongdoings-only to be responsible for mine. So I will go humbly to them and apologize. From a spiritual place of taking responsibility for me and how I occur in their world. I will not let them harm me in the future but will let them have their own journey and lessons when they are ready for them. It’s not up to me when they “learn” only them. I will let go so that I can move on and my husband is at peace with them-his mommy and daddy.

The words of many a self help program echo in my head, “You can be right or you can be _______.” Fill in the blank with successful, related, happy. Being right is not joyful-being at peace with oneself is. This is the first time when I’ve felt clear enough to be at peace with my apology and not resentful. I will continue to pray to Goddess that this will be the case going forward.

Blessed Be!

A Catholic boy and a Jewish girl got married and

After several years of fighting with BigBear (hubby) regarding his parents and an incident that I won’t get into here, I finally had a revelation!

I rememembered an episode of Frasier and once I brought it up-BigBear got it! It was a major breakthrough in our relationship. I keep fighting like a Jew-going back to my roots and he, like an uptight Catholic! So his (and his parents) subtle comments are apparently really meaningful and my long angry rants are just a way to get back to love!

For an illumination of this fascinating cultural difference-please watch this 7 minute clip from Frasier. After years of being a fan-Frasier has finally become our therapist.

Goddess Works!

The results from the spiritual opening that occured for me at the sence have been amazing. I really feel that the proof of spirit in my life is so compelling that I almost (note that I said almost) don’t need faith!

I have listened to the recording several times over already and hear new things each time. Jeremiah told me that in the next 6 months my life was going to be so good that it would be beyong my wildest dreams. I thought at the time that I had some pretty wild dreams so didn’t know how that could be the case but have already seen it happen!

The already amazing relationship that I have with my husband has skyrocketed! We are closer than ever on every level. In the past, I’ve been such a light sleeper that I slept alone but have started to crave his energy and now sleep sounder than ever-even spooning! He can snore as loud as a freight train and I just love being near him! The only time I even hear it is when I get up to go to the bathroom!

He keeps coming up to me and just telling me how much he loves and appreciates me-how beautiful my body is-how he just wants to connect! All this and he’s straight too!

Anyway, it’s been wonderful. There have already been some big bumps too but they are passing without so much trauma. I am soo grateful for my life!

Blessing to all of you. I invite you to say that you are open to receiving blessings of love from the universe or whatever you believe in and see what happens. Also do something spiritual that is outside of your comfort zone and enjoy!