The myth of before and after

We all see those glossy pictures, read the sweet stories. Ugly before, beautiful after. Poor before, rich after. Single before, married after.

It’s all a myth. The only real before is before we are born and the only real after if death. That’s it. Lots of people think those aren’t real befores and afters either.

Our whole life is during. That’s it. Whatever is happening, in and out-it’s all a process.

It’s hard to let go of the myth of before and after. Despite feeling like every day is a before picture, I just want to believe that it will all be worth it for the after picture. But life isn’t like that-except in retrospect. It’s all just a big during.

Passion And Survival-The Balance

American Idol just makes me want to follow my dreams! I want to express my passions and be my best self! I write erotica, I write romance, I write personal growth and sometimes I just feel like my life is sucked away on the details.

However, even Bette Midler has to do dishes every now and again! So do singers, artists and writers-we all have to do dishes and laundry. So I must remember that most animals were given the life, by Goddess, of focusing entirely on survival and procreation and human were given the gift of being able to spend our surplus energy on expression and maybe it’s ok that I don’t always have a surplus-this does not make me any less passionate.

I love coaches-I love athletic coaches because they seem to really get to drive athletes to be their best. Other coaches do that too I guess. I love the movie Remember The Titans. I sometimes wish that we had Goddess Teams where we can strive to be our best and get coached towards it too. I know that lots of personal growth places do seminars like this but when life is going full speed it seems like there just isn’t enough time.

I don’t know where this is going but I do know that I love to see my fingers fly across the keyboard and I love to express my thoughts in writing. To me it is beautiful that nothing turns into something. Writing takes the ethereal and makes it real. I believe that may be my whole f*cking mission-to take the ethereal and make it real.

Goddess Bless

How Do I Not Be In Denial AND Be Optimistic?

I am doing better. Last night I wondered the following:

How do I stay grounded in reality, not in denial and still be empowered and in hope and possibility?