Bursts Of Joy

This morning I awoke really early-thinking about my addiction to eating. About the little bursts of joy that I get from certain foods. How I still crave that every day. Every minute of every day. I do not know how to release it. How to experience joy in other ways-ways that are real every day ways. Pure brain joy that is.

I have been wanting to un-plug consciously but not knowing how to do it. I read, eat, watch tv. Sex has not been that good lately. I like it but it’s not awesome. I don’t think I need to work on techniques so much as more change from within. That is my new theme-looking within. I just am not doing it a lot. Always looking out.

I miss teaching too. Family education, adult education-I love who I am when I am teaching. I want to do that too!

That brings me to the To Do list. Doing Doing Doing. Always doing or NOT doing. Dominated by doing.

Blessed Be For Today.

• Bursts of Joy Surround Me!
• I Enjoy Doing Joyful Things!
• I Deserve Joy!

What would I do if everything is already fixed?

I have been thinking about what is next for me. I feel like I’ve spent a some time worrying about the world and women and trying to “fix” what i think needs to be fixed. I want to help women heal their self images and sexual identities. However, I want to stop looking at the world through the lense of “what’s wrong” and instead accept that everyone is exactly where they need to be at the moment. If that is the case-if I am not fixing-then what is next for me spiritually.

I want to learn how to be connected with spirit more in my every day life and how to do more activities that feel spiritually nourishing.

I am also looking at my volunteer commitments. I want my volunteer time to be more aligned with my personal commitments and not just with what “needs to be done”.

I just feel like I spend so much time fixing-it’s not fun and nothing ever is fixed! Including me! I can’t help but hear the voices of all my years of personal growth training and reading-everything is just as it should be!

Keep in mind that I’m not at the moment addressing the big picture issues that seem “wrong” such as neglect and abuse, human trafficking, etc… more the issues of suburban American malaise.

Right now-a good nights sleep would be helpful too!

Awesome Angel Message

This week’s message from Angelspeake’s, Trudy Griswold is profound!

“Life will become abundantly good when you can learn to ask from your intellect–believe from your heart–and let go from your gut–while saying thank you to your spiritual support team.”
Blessings – Your Angels
Have a wonderful week! – Trudy

Never Postpone Love…

“Never postpone love till tomorrow, it’s the busiest day of the week”

Angel Love by Bonnie Altenhein

The Flower-The Fruit-The Seed

I am reading, Seven Stages On A Woman’s Journey of SpritRemember Who You Are by Linda Carroll. I picked it up at The Dragon and The Phoenix last weekend. I am only on page 27 and have already enjoyed it thoroughly. Linda talks about the Celtic tradition of describing the woman’s life cycle as “the flower (girl), the fruit (the mother), and the seed (the elder).” This is the first I’ve heard of this.

I’ve always heard, maiden, mother crone. Sounds kinda depressing – I like flower, fruit and seed much better!

I have also been praying recently to be more impacted by and impressed with the written word. I’ve always had a disdain for books-even though I love reading-I felt that they could not seriously impact a life. I’ve seen people close to me read the most thoughtful, spiritual and growth oriented books and receive nothing from them but intellectual knowledge. This is important but not where true life changing power comes from.

I felt that if I am ever to feel good about writing my book/s I must be at peace with and excited about the whole medium! So I found this tidbit that I read so much more tantalizing!

There are multiple books that I have gotten tons from but that I’ve only begun and never finished. I think that I will design my book specifically with this in mind! Maybe I can write the whole think summed up in 20 pages and then elaborate for the rest. I want to give value-even to those who don’t finish the book!

Goddess Works!

The results from the spiritual opening that occured for me at the sence have been amazing. I really feel that the proof of spirit in my life is so compelling that I almost (note that I said almost) don’t need faith!

I have listened to the recording several times over already and hear new things each time. Jeremiah told me that in the next 6 months my life was going to be so good that it would be beyong my wildest dreams. I thought at the time that I had some pretty wild dreams so didn’t know how that could be the case but have already seen it happen!

The already amazing relationship that I have with my husband has skyrocketed! We are closer than ever on every level. In the past, I’ve been such a light sleeper that I slept alone but have started to crave his energy and now sleep sounder than ever-even spooning! He can snore as loud as a freight train and I just love being near him! The only time I even hear it is when I get up to go to the bathroom!

He keeps coming up to me and just telling me how much he loves and appreciates me-how beautiful my body is-how he just wants to connect! All this and he’s straight too!

Anyway, it’s been wonderful. There have already been some big bumps too but they are passing without so much trauma. I am soo grateful for my life!

Blessing to all of you. I invite you to say that you are open to receiving blessings of love from the universe or whatever you believe in and see what happens. Also do something spiritual that is outside of your comfort zone and enjoy!

Gay Rights-Civil Rights-Human Rights

You’ve probably all read about how you can cook a frog. If you put it in a pot of boiling water-it will jump out but if you put it in a pot of cold water and gradually turn the heat up-it will stay in there until it’s dead.

I just read about Wandy Sykes coming out and really love what she said.

“You know, I don’t really talk about my sexual orientation. I didn’t feel like I had to. I was just living my life, not necessarily in the closet, but I was living my life,” said Sykes, 44, while speaking at a Las Vegas rally for gay marriage.

“I got pissed off,” she continued. “They pissed me off. I said, ‘You know what? Now I gotta get in your face’ and that’s what we all have to do now. They pissed off the wrong group of people. They have galvanized a community…Instead of having gay marriage in California, we’re going to get it across the country.”

I hope that we as a human race will get together and make gay marriage legal everwhere in the country-no more slowly turning up the heat-they just got dropped in boiling water. If two people want to enter into a binding legal/spiritual agreement about their life and share all the same protections and rights as straight people-let them! Like civil rights, which is not just a “black” issue but a human issue, so are gay rights. When any of our rights are compromised-all of us suffer. As a jew, woman and someone with an alternative religious practice-I say that we should all stand-not just the affronted community-whatever it is.

Goddess come in all shapes, sizes, races and sexual orientations. So do a**holes. Lets be Goddesses and work towards love not away from it!

My first seance-it was real, empowering and fun

I had an amazing night last night. I attended a Seance with Rev. Donna and her spirit guide, Ms. Tulip. There were 7 of us plus Donna in the room-it was amazing! I highly recommend it!

I met my spirit joy guide, Darienne-a trickster with brown hair, violet eyes and wearing bloomers! I didn’t actually see her-this was the description that I heard. She encouraged me to wear jewelry with bright colors-especially yellow-I am seeking a yellow stoned necklace now. She likes plaid because she likes bright colors. I also have a little dog with me. I’m looking forward to hearing the recording for more details that have already left me.

My guide is helping me to open the doors to spirit-I am looking forward to seeing what that is all about.There were a lot of male spirits who visited-I was surprised that there were not more Goddesses, but I did hear that Kuan Yin was there-I must learn more about her! I was really surprised at the distinct personality and gender that each spirit showed.

Anyway-it was a wonderful and cool night and I look forward to going back again soon.

Let’s All Have Cake!

I feel like my Goddess identity has been a bit squashed. She does not know how to communicate her message to the world. She wants to tell women that the process of learning to love themselves is a sexual one first. Then it’s about trust. Then it’s about respect. Then it’s about boundaries (with the self first) and finally it is one of spreading the word.

As annoying as those Jehovah’s Witnesses are-they are willing to spread the word of their faith in a world where many do not want to hear. As a goddess lover I feel the need to hide. I will come out of hiding.

Do you masturbate? Do you enjoy sex with a partner? Start there. Those who believe that it is wrong or not necessary are denying a gift that Goddess gave us. Would you say no to a calorie free and healthy cake at a party? If it was the best cake in the universe and would only help you or at least leave you no worse off than you already are? No. Well orgasms are like that. Free-no calories-they do not hurt anyone. This gift was given to us to help us cope with the rest of reality! Use it!!!

We are not about removing your joys but enhancing them

One of my great inspirations was Trudy Griswold who wrote the book Angelspeake. I had the privilege of working for her briefly and learned so much from her. Over the years I have channeled angels for myself and others and never would have done this is not for my time with her. I encourage all to read her book. I just went to catch up with her on her website and found that her dearly beloved sister has passed. So sad. It is part of life but still feels very full of fear and grief.

My writing tonight:

Me: I feel devoid of inspiration-devoid of motivation-devoid of creativity. I don’t know where to funnel my spirit/erotic self-am I an author or a narcissist?

The Angels: We bless and love you and want you to know that we are here for you that we are with you and want you to love yourself for always.

We want you to know that you’re living the life that you wanted that you love and that you deserve. It will get better-we ask you simply to pray every day and night for you to live out your purpose. We know that you do not want to do whatever-if giving up your husband or son were the price-never fear it is not. We bless and love you and want you to know that we are not about removing your joys but enhancing them. Take this time to pray. Get on your hands and knees and ask for guidance, purpose, and commitment. That is all. We bless and love you always.

-the angels.