Post Op. That’s me. I survived. It hurt. But I survived. When I was in the recovery room I felt Goddess. I’ve been praying to feel her presence for a long time. I just felt full of her love for a while. I initially felt like crap. I was really really thirsty. There was this really great nurse who gave me some ice chips even though she wasn’t supposed to. She told me to make sure that they totally melted before I swallowed.
I kept feeling like I wanted to tell her “Goddess Blessings To You,” but then I thought that I didn’t want to offend her. I was thinking of how everyone feels like it’s ok to tell me all about Jesus and they never worry about offending me so why should I worry? I finally said, “I hope this doesn’t offend you, but Goddess blessings to you.” She told me that ,”is who I serve.” She was she was a believer as was the nurse who was going to be caring for me in my room. I felt so happy. I really felt blessed. It turns our fellow believer was off duty by the time I got up there but it was still awesome.
I remember thinking that I better take really good care of my skin as I heal because I do not ever want to have surgery again. It really hurts!
I went home the next day. I am ok. My incisions hurt and sometimes I feel like crying but otherwise am OK so far.
Blessed be.
I am going to the hospital today to get my surgery. I had to take my nose jewelry out. I feel somewhat naked without it. I haven’t been without since I got it in a year ago when I dedicated myself to the Goddess. It was so tight that I had to go back to Piercing Experience to get it removed. It was a pink stone with purple titanium around it. I bought a new one-it is light green peridot with silver titanium. I was really stressed about it but the good thing is that the woman there showed me how to do it myself so now I am empowered. Plus I am over the phase of reclaiming pink and moving on to other colors.
So anyway, off I go to the hospital in about 30 minutes. I am nervous. Sort of about surgery, sort of about the whole big thing. Never again will I have the satisfaction of a eating a large meal and feeling stuffed and sort of sleepy and drugged. Never the comfort of a dozen donut holes and some donuts too. MMM-so good. I have suffered much for my comfort so now I will learn new ways to comfort that won’t end with me being too big to fit in an airplane seat. I am ready-I am willing-I am stepping into the unknown.
I pray to the Goddess to protect my son, to take care of me and to keep me safe. I want to be healthy and move on to the next challenge-or else just enjoy for a while. I don’t know, I just want to live a life not plagued by hunger and food obsession.
I want to say thank you to my wonderful friends and family who have shown their true colors and been amazing. Also, I want to send love out to my xBFF-The Empress and send her lots of love. I miss you.
Thank you-Blessed Be.
goddessness, lap band, share, spirituality | GoddessC | 
January 12, 2008 9:17 pm | 
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